EVOLVE

This post was shared 9 December 2019 - it is the first time I came out form post partum and I closed up The Club that I designed -> The Club of Executives Professional.

It was also two months of my Spiritual Awakening and came out from “Dark Night of The Soul”(normal human term).

I was called to completed this year - long project immediately as the direction had shifted.

I was yearning to speak on the stage but I had so much fear!

I was yearning to do a lot of deep personal development work and I did not know what to do the only I could think of it was going back to university but that didn’t feel right at all and also I did not have funds as I just had baby and she was 8 months old and with other two primary school children.

I was seeking for my life - passion.

It was so hard to “think” what I like and also I want and that felt really weird, I was curious 🧐.

I yearned to join a like - minded people and I was in many groups that my voice didn’t get heard or valued. I felt so small and invisible.

I could not find my space at all.

Being seen and listened and valued as a human being fully and completely is very healing.

Along the way I cultivated:-

1. EMPTY PRESENCE. From there I could hear you very deep inside and I completely see you and my body could feel you!

2. COMPASSIONATE COMMUNICATION. Speak from the heart with highest and purest integrity and respect.

3. HONOURING every relationships connection all around me and energetically too.

I SPEAK WITH CONFIDENCE BECAUSE THE WORLD NEEDS MY LIGHT

(Written 6/12/2019)

For years, I was looking for public speaking courses so I could speak in front of people but I was not successful.

Stage fright comes from a limiting belief from the past. When I was little girl, my parents told me not to listen to adults conversation and told me to my room. It is not polite to be in the adult conversation. You do not speak up if you have any question because you are a kid. This is cultural issue and it is still happening in this century.

Over the time, I had this belief system that It’s not safe to speak publicly and I won’t be accepted for what I have to say. That fear is triggered every time the opportunity to speak arises. In order to change this age old phobia, one must reprogram their brain.

I learnt to turn fear to faith.

Feeling great about ourselves is essential, because that confidence is what allows us to share our gifts with the world. When we’re confident, we show up for ourselves and others. We speak up when we have ideas and questions. We do what inspires us. And as a result, we inspire others.

In order to diminish self-consciousness and build my confidence, I step outside my comfort zone. I have to speak up even if my voice shakes.

This year, I was on the stage twice! I am very proud of myself BECAUSE I DID IT!

And now coming back here 2024, I have spoken more than 180 online zoom connects!

In SACRED HEART VALLEY - GOTC. I speak from my heart and speak from nothingness.

And I feel so deeply empowered to create Self -Designed Life Card.